So, 2013 is finally over and what a year it’s been!
This year was full of interesting events – the Doctor Who 50th Anniversary, the passing from one Doctor to another, moving house again to a much better place, but also I’ve been in a relationship with my first ever boyfriend. Yes, I’m bisexual for sure. Granted, Joshy and I had to part company due to lack of time and money, but the love is certainly still there on my part, and always will be.
Since then, I’ve been on the lookout for new friends and new experiences, new adventures. New student films to be in and projects to work on. But I’ve also noticed a huge lack of self confidence in myself of late. Almost like I’ve not gone anywhere in a long time, and even stopped focussing on the things I love, and started trying to be someone else just to impress others who don’t even like me for who I truly am – especially in the gay community, as it happens. The number of times I’ve been used by people or left standing are too many to count.
And that all stops right now. No more trying to be someone else. No more being used or put down by the scum outside my own ‘field’ of class. This year I’m going to do better, reach further and climb higher. And to Hell with the rest of you who think I’m weird or silly or a toy. I’d rather stand amongst people who love me for who I am and what I do than spend another miserable second of breath with those who look down at me.
Also this year, I’m going to change things – maybe even my career, and take a step towards where I truly want to be.
The journey will be long and hard, and I will trip a couple of times, but it’s better than being stuck in a perpetual hell of not-moving.
I look forward to better things.
Happy New Year Everyone xxx
John Hutch 